Too many things happening at once. When things like this happen, i become afraid. The fear of losing anyone or anything in my life. Will i suffer the loss of hope, love, Hafiz, my girls, my family, my job or even myself? I keep running away. But how far can i run. Fear gets the best of me.

12 December 2009. Zoukout. Can't wait! Anybody going?

I am as busy as the bees. Geez. Too much is going on in my life right now. Work has been exhausting as usual but well, why should I complain. My boss just raised my pay not too long ago! And for that missing bag, I've got insurance covered for that. So I guess its worthwhile huh?

This month has been rather fine. Love, finally started work as a policeman at Hougang NPC. Jauh pe. Hehehe... And this month's pay was much more than usual as they backdated my pay. So when there's money, there's shopping and manicures! I'm in love with my pink LG cookie but the manicure suck. So I guess I will be making my way down again to re do my nails.

There's so much to do and so much to think about for the upcoming months. Love and I have to save up a lot. He will be taking his class 3 license soon, I will continue my studies in early childhood while working to get a much better pay. We have plans to get engaged next year but that will be confirmed again once his family visits Singapore. Wedding plans are underway as I speak, maybe 3 years from now. Grrr! I guess we have to 'ikat perut' for a while.

Ok that's all to update now. Im meeting my girls soon.

Halloween is near again this year. The photos below are takes last year at night safari. It was a blast as we all had to dress up. Geez I can't wait to go again this year. Let's wait till Fiz gets his schedule. As much as I want to dress up this year, Fiz seems reluctant. :( Girlfriends, do join us this year lah................ Mseti best kan.

Grrr. It's been ages. Btw let me say Selamat Hari Raya pumpkins. Before I start uploading all the photos here, I would like to give a shoutout to my baby girls who are in Malaysia right now. Cepat la balik korang! Tak mau lambat2 la. Hehe...

So here are the raya pictures.

Well, that pretty much sum up the whole day. And now, I'm waiting for Fiz to come back from his soccer so that we can start our tv and food marathon. It's been two days since he slept over, so I am overly excited. Sleepovers are the bomb!

P.S. More pictures on FB.

Fiz, we have finally reached the first year together. I admit it has not been smooth sailing. Your absence to Aussie was one of them but I am glad that you decided not to stay. Indeed the way I love you is far much different from how I used to with the others. And at times I feel its unfair to you. You are different, different from the rest. No matter how much I whine, no matter how stubborn I can be and no matter how bitchy I can be, you'd stick around. For a simple reason, you love me.

I love you. More than how I love sleeping, eating and even more than I love watching Buffy. I love the way you will carry me to my bed, tuck me in and kiss me good night. I love to wake up every morning to see your masam face and kissing my forehead. Right now, I am just loss for words because words are simply not enough to say how much you mean to me. I guess its just the special bond between you and me that is unexplainable.

For now, I love you Muhammad Hafiz Suhaimi. More than you'd ever know.

Happy 1st Anniversary!

More pictures on facebook :)

No doubt, it was the best.

Happy 20th Birthday to myself! EEEEE tak tau malu.. I know i know... Anyway, more pictures tmr alright.

P.S. Fiz wears kain to sleep!

P.P.S. my dad's kain at that.  ROFL....